The Weight I Carried

This is not a weight-loss book.
It’s a coming-home story.

Before the scale ever moved, her body was already speaking—through pain, inflammation, exhaustion, and a quiet desperation no diagnosis could explain. What followed was not a tidy transformation, but a long, brave unraveling of everything she had been taught about weight, worth, discipline, and healing.

In this deeply honest and compassionate book, a holistic healing practitioner shares her journey through chronic illness, trauma-held weight, medical gaslighting, addiction-adjacent coping, spiritual disconnection, and the moment everything finally changed—not through force, restriction, or punishment, but through safety, presence, and love.

Blending lived experience with accessible science, nervous-system wisdom, and spiritual insight, this book explores why traditional weight-loss methods often fail, how trauma lodges itself in the body, and what happens when movement becomes medicine, food becomes information instead of comfort, and the body is finally listened to instead of controlled.

You’ll learn why healing weight is never just about food, why “willpower” was never the problem, and how peace—not perfection—creates sustainable change. Along the way, you’ll be guided through gentle practices, reflections, and embodied shifts that support real transformation from the inside out.

This book is for anyone who has ever felt betrayed by their body, dismissed by the medical system, shamed by wellness culture, or exhausted by trying to fix themselves. It is an invitation to stop fighting your body and start partnering with it—to release the war and choose healing instead.

Because when your body becomes a battlefield, the way forward isn’t more discipline.
It’s devotion.